Wednesday, January 16, 2008
it was eejin's birthday yesterday so we all took a trip down to his place to celebrate with him. it was a happy occasion. made friends, forged better bonds. and as usual, i learnt alot. tee really helped in my process. sometimes he asked about my experiences in corespondence to his 3 daughters. he's a really good father and a super thoughtful husband. with each of his questions, however, i unknowingly learn more about myself. i know more about my family as well. some things you refuse to acknowledge your whole life suddenly comes to you through a simple question and you start wondering why you wont acknowledge it. anyways, whatever it is, all these small gatherings really make a whole lot of difference in my life -- in their own small ways. its as if its God's way of coming through me with a whole new batch of people who are older than me, yet close to my age. like a guiding point, or a stepping stone to look toward the future. tee says im 'conservative' towards the relationship sector. i say i've grown up. i mean, everyone knows how wild it used to be. but i guess its just a phase many of us go through; most likely because everyone's just still trying to find their identity and placing in the world. till you get pretty much tired of it. then perhaps thats when you just wanna grow up.and i suppose i'm lucky. i'm lucky to have met that someone who was willing, still is, and i think and pray and hope will always be around to watch me grow up, grow up with me, and hate growing up altogether with. that someone who always gives me to opportunity to make mistakes and never make too much fuss about it yet always forgives me for them all. they say girls will tend to find guys who resemble their father. maybe thats why i find myself so attached to this person. because he's just like daddy. just that of course i still feel more secured with daddy around and thank God daddy's so damned open minded about everything. so i'm happy. i'm happy with these two people in my life which i constantly pray for and thank God for. they're so much blessings and so much love that He has given me. some stuff happened today which made me ponder alot. questioned my understanding of certain aspects. pulled all my doubts out of the box. and finally made everything so clear to me. it's like how it rains nonstop for the entire day and it goes on and on for hours till it finally, suddenly, stops. and it's a clear day already. as if no rain at all on a lovely sunny day. and life still goes on as it always does. and it's the people who stick by you no matter what. they're family. rciy is family. my own family at home is family. and then i realise anyone can be family as long as they accept you and love you wholeheartedly for who you are, forgive your flaws and stand by you no matter what, under any circumstances. that someone stuck by me -- all that research to understand everything and provide so much comfort for me showed it all. happiness was all that mattered and i know the effort. i'm showered with so much love that it has made my life so much more beautiful. and happy. i am happy. it isn't easy to feel happy. but i am happy. right now. thank you. for making me feel so beautiful and happy. and filling my life with hope and smiles.
- everything's just temporary;
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